Pope Frances, climate change, abortion and being fully Catholic

It didn’t take long for people to become apoplectic in regards to Pope Francis’ addresses to Congress and the United Nations. Self-labeled conservatives took to the interwebs to claim the Pope is not really a Christian and/or is ignorant and cowardly on the real issues. Give them time and they’ll insist that him offering a blessing instead of condemnation is further proof he’s a fraud.

Perhaps I shouldn’t be surprised, considering that what passes for conversation these days is nothing more than bullying on social media, and people’s attention spans have been reduced to that of a goldfish, but still I am. The general public can’t seem to grasp what the Pope is, in spite of his outfit, which really should give a clue. So, let me help everyone out: Pope Francis is a Catholic. Wholly, fully, completely.

Pope_Francis_Korea_Haemi_Castle_19_(cropped)I know this concept of being wholly, fully, completely Catholic is hard to understand, what with your Nancy Pelosi Catholics and your John Boehner Catholics and all the rest of us sinners in between, but stick with me and I’ll explain.

Someone who is wholly, fully, completely Catholic believes in a being a disciple of Jesus Christ through – this is the tricky part – the action of a relationship with Jesus Christ and other people. Not just a me-and-Jesus connection like some Christian denominations, and not just and me-and-people bond like others, but both Jesus and people.

This comes directly from the Gospel in the form of Jesus’ answer to a question about the greatest commandment: Love God with all your heart and your neighbor as yourself. It is the ultimate pro-life message, and, frankly, not many of us are good at it. We’re flawed humans who tend to think of ourselves first and our neighbor second – or not at all. We pick our particular issue and gnaw it to the bone, but ignore (conveniently) other issues, insisting (selfishly) that our issue is the real issue.

But Pope Francis has it down, something you can see by how he chooses to align himself with the poor and marginalized just like, you know, the guy Christians claim to follow.

Everything Francis said in his White House and United Nations addresses fit right in with love of God and neighbor: The powerful have no right to take advantage of the weak because the weak are our neighbor. We do not have the right to kill each other – be it in the womb, on our streets, in war or in prison – because we are each others neighbor. We have no right to abuse, much less destroy, the environment because our neighbors, both now and in future generations, depend on the environment to life. We should fight greed that destroys one part of the world and its people’s because the people in that part of the world are our neighbors.

You cannot have relationship with another person if you’re yelling at them all day long on your Twitter feed. Or if you’re demonizing them in a presidential race. Or bullying them in the halls of Congress or at the United Nations or over your backyard fence or at your dinner table. You can’t have a relationship with someone if you already think you know everything about them and know everything they think. And you sure as heck can’t have a relationship with them if you’re driving planes into their buildings or bombing their cities to smithereens or bulldozing their houses. These things do not make for peaceful co-existence.

There’s plenty blame to go around, and the Pope knows it. His message isn’t that one country is all bad and others are all good. His message is that the world has gone crazy and the world’s leaders have been acting selfishly for two long. Get a grip, he’s saying. Look into each other’s eyes. Pay attention. Stop thinking just about yourself and think about the common good and a future for all. Exchange pictures of your grandchildren.

We have a knee-jerk tendency to want people to fit into a neat little boxes we’ve constructed. We are more comfortable with people who look like us, talk like us, think like us, worship like us and live like us. Pope Francis doesn’t fit into a neat box. He’s 100 percent pro-life all the time. That means he’s against abortion and destruction of the environment and war and capital punishment and greed and nativist tendencies that talking heads stoke in an effort to feed fear.

Francis is bigger than our boxes and frankly, better than us. He is challenging all of us – especially Catholic Christians – to get a grip and realize that all of us must learn to live together or none of us – including the children he so cares about every step along the way – will survive. It would be easier if life were uncomplicated, sacrifice-free and didn’t require us to think about what our actions might be doing to our neighbor on the other side of the globe, but that’s not the Pope. The Pope sees the big picture and that picture is of one big family on one small spinning planet. It would do us well – all of us – to heed his message and act on it.

Kim Davis, gay marriage and true Christian persecution

I haven’t blogged for nine months, mostly because I fell off the blogging horse after a rather traumatic opening to my year. The longer I was away from it, the more I questioned whether I had anything unique to add to cultural discussions. This insecurity will be familiar to other people of my Tribe, because writers are nothing if not lacking in confidence.

But then the situation in Kentucky happened, and with people claiming that Kim Davis is being persecuted for her Christian beliefs, I thought maybe I did have something to say. To wit: Christians do Christianity no great favors by manufacturing outrage in the name of God.


  • There absolutely are Christians being persecuted for their faith throughout the world. They are tortured and killed for nothing more than believing that Jesus Christ was who he said he was. These acts are carried out by radicals of other faiths who want to drag every person back to the good old days of the Middle Ages and are tied up in cultural, political and economic histories. If you want details on how bad it is, as well a big-picture view of anti-Christian behavior in the world, please see John Allen Jr.’s great piece in Crux. 
  • U.S. Christians are often treated in a manner that can make one feel persecuted. I’ve experienced this among colleagues in the media and at the university, and I’ve heard from students who feel shamed by professors because they are “out” as Christians at a public university. People of faith fighting abortion are dismissed as “holy rollers”, “anti-woman” or “radicals” in spite of Pro-Life Humanists and Democrats for Life and the fact that 73 percent of all Americans want abortions banned after 12 weeks gestation. However, feeling persecuted in these ways in no way compares to the aforementioned actual persecution of Christians. In fact, the United States affords all faiths – especially Christianity – a ridiculously wide range of protections, and it is stupid for us to pretend otherwise.
  • God does not need our protection or defense, as evidenced by the litany of “Save me, my Lord!” statements in the Bible and the absence of God crying out, “Save me, my people!” Christians who think they have to protect or defend God because God’s not big enough to do it himself have not carefully read the Scriptures.
  • And finally, God did not anoint any of us to save people’s souls or appoint us jury on other people’s faith or life practice (See: Jesus as Savior; see also: Mote in brother’s eye, log in your own).

God did, however, ask people do do a few things, which are illuminated by what Jesus Christ said when directly asked what God expected from his followers.

  1. Matthew 5:44: “But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you.”
  2. Mark 10:21: After following all the 10 commandments perfectly, “Go, sell what you have, and give to the poor.”
  3. Luke 11:25: “You shall love the Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your being, with all your strength and with all your mind, and love your neighbor as yourself.”

That last one is the biggie. A brilliant priest once explained it this way: The first part of the verse instructs us to love God with all that we are, and the second part tells us to love people with all that we do.

People of faith often feel that a secular world gone amok is being crammed down their throats. Violent and dehumanizing music lyrics, abortion on demand, websites that encourage and enable adultery, the sexualization of childhood, the latest Jack Black movie – all of this can be frustrating. I’m certain Kim Davis feels frustrated, or perhaps her personal history and subsequent religious conversion made her feel the need to take a stand.

But because – praise the Lord – we do not live in a theocracy, frustration doesn’t mean you get to stop following the law of the land. If you disagree with that law, you can go through appropriate channels to try to change it. You cannot, however, hang onto your elected position while refusing to carry out the duties of that elected office and claim that act is Christian. Because, it is not. However, something else is.

Right now, this very minute, there are thousands of refugees flooding into Europe, entire families dying as they try to escape war and actual persecution. What are you doing to love that neighbor? Right now, someone in the poor part of your town or your city is trying to figure out how to pay all her bills and still feed her kids. What are you doing to love that neighbor? Right now, someone elderly that you know – your grandmother, your spinster aunt, the guy you saw on the bus yesterday – is desperately lonely. What are you doing to love that neighbor? Right now, in more neighborhoods than we have the strength to admit, children are being tucked into bed in homes where parents counsel them to stay away from the windows for fear of stray bullets. What are you doing to love that entire neighborhood?

The world is full of true suffering, true persecution, true need, true injustice. And Jesus told his followers what God expected of them, which wasn’t anything like “Be outraged in my name.” Instead it was, and remains, just this: Love your neighbor as yourself. If we spent our time actually doing the hard work of loving all our neighbors with all we do, of solving the actual problems caused by war and famine and violence and despair and, yes, actual religious persecution, we’d have no time for outrage because we’d be too busy acting. And we’d never have to tell people we were Christians either, because they’d know we were by our love.

Running to Mass in the rain

Last month, near mid-December in the middle of my work day, I ran to daily Mass. It wasn’t for exercise, and it wasn’t because I was a few minutes late – although I was, as I frequently am. And it wasn’t because the desert sky was pouring rain and I had no umbrella, although it was and I did not.

Rather, I ran because I could not wait to get there. Could. Not. Wait. It was such an unusual feeling that I noted it as I jumped over one puddle and landed in the next, thinking to myself, “Do you see this? You’re running to Mass!” Considering that I’d left a Sunday Mass at the offertory in mid-November (so ham-handed the liturgy, so awful the homily, so off-key the music I simply could take no more), this running to church needed to be noted.

I was out of breath when I slipped in the side door, arriving just as the priest  concluded the opening prayer and the congregation sat in unison to listen to the first reading. I didn’t care that I was late, didn’t care that I was breathless, didn’t try to hide in one of the back pews with my sloshy shoes. I went where I was pulled, which was the third pew, as close as I could get without making a total scene. When I sat down, I felt ridiculously joyful, which, as I’ve written before, is an exceedingly rare feeling for me.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been drawn to church even when I’ve been frustrated, angry or upset with The Church. I honed my beginning journalism skills in the Catholic press and got my start in column writing with commentary on (and, sometimes critique of) the Catholic Church. And for years – both in childhood and as a young adult – I found great comfort and solace in the practice of my faith. In mid-adulthood, I enjoyed deep intellectual stimulation from the study of Catholic theology and history.

But nearly a decade ago, the solace was ever-so-slowly replaced by a deep, gaping hole. This was more than doubts about the Big Questions and more than irritation with the hierarchy. It was more than a side-effect of what has been described positively as “an extra dose of sensitivity to life’s brutality” and negatively as “high-strung” or “anxious.” It was, my late spiritual director said, a dark night of the soul. Perhaps tellingly (or perhaps not) my secular Jewish shrink called it the same thing.

These dark nights are not pleasant places to reside, but the only way out of them – like so many of life’s brutal parts – is through. And so I kept on the journey, surviving mostly on the faith of others, like someone harvesting a Wi-Fi connection off a neighbor. I kept going to Mass, kept reading James Martin and the Bible, and because I’m an Advent girl, started praying the Liturgy of the Hours during my bus commute when Advent started.

My new job is downtown, just a couple blocks from the Cathedral where there is a noon Mass each day. I went once, then again, and pretty soon I was going a few times a week. It was a perfect break at just the right time.

I’ve always preferred daily Mass to Sunday; the quieter, simpler, stripped-down liturgy draws me in. Daily Mass at a downtown cathedral is especially nice because of the mix of  people attending: men and women with Seriously Important Jobs sharing pews and prayers with the homeless and mentally ill, all of them there out of desire instead of the obligation attached to Sunday.

So maybe just giving God an extra place to reach me is all it took, or maybe the Liturgy of the Hours on the bus fertilized the soil of my soul, but whatever the reason, a shard of heavenly glass began slicing through the cloak of black draped over my faith and on the day I ran to Mass, light broke through. It was like an inhaler being given to an asthmatic.

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When I received communion, I responded with the appropriate, “Amen,” but then, gratitude jumping out of my mouth before I could clamp my lips against it, I also said “Thank you.” Nonplussed, the priest responded with, “Sure,” which made me smile all the way back to my pew.

And then Mass ended, and I walked back to my office in the rain, and life and work went on its busy way. But underneath I felt something I haven’t for a long time, something that seemed a lot like peace. And all I can do fall to my knees in thanksgiving.

This is what God looks like

I’ve battled depression on and off for nearly 30 years. During that time, I’ve had three bad episodes, week-long events when I needed help with my family life so I could make it to doctor’s appointments and throw darts at a medication chart to see what help might present itself to me.

I’ve also had exactly three days – count ’em three – when I’ve felt complete peace and enjoyed what I think must be the average amount of happiness “normal” people feel on most days. They were wonderful days and I hold out hope that someday a fabulous mood-disorder cure will be developed to allow me dozens more of those days.

With the exception of the aforementioned episodes, I am fine, just fine, as long as I stick to my medication-doesn’t-work-for-me regime of exercise, my happy light, eating a fairly healthy diet and getting a decent amount of deep sleep. Life inside my head is far from sunshine and rainbows, but I can participate fully in all parts of the world: work, family, second job as a closet novelist, church, friends, our dogs, random hobbies. Most of the time, I feel that life is hard but beautiful. (Or as the Momastery folks say, “Brutiful.“)

But now the Demon is back and it seems worse than the other times. I know this because I’m doing things I’ve never done before. I’ve missed Mass because the thought of driving there is overwhelming. I’ve sent regrets to wedding invitations because trying to figure out which dress to wear is too much. I’ve missed weekend meetings with friends because the thought of having to shower on a Saturday – or at least wash my face and comb my hair – makes me burst into tears.

I have almost no energy, and what little I have is reserved for my job. I know that eventually this episode, like bad weather, will end and I don’t want it to end with me unemployed, so all the strength I have goes to the Monday through Friday routine. I’m like a squirrel saving up for winter except I’m only saving up on the weekends for the rest of the week. I’m basically Just No Fun. And like the millions of others suffering from depression, I’ve felt really alone and for a bit, forgot what God looks like. This past week, I was reminded that God looks exactly like Love, and in my particular case, Love looks like this:

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Tiny, beautiful candles from my daughter dropped off in the middle of a Sunday afternoon….
… a who-wouldn’t-love-this-face card sent with an iPad case by my soon-to-be-related-not-just-friends friend Stacy …
A custom card filled with tiny notes from my women's group reminding me that it will get better.
… and a custom card filled with tiny notes from my women’s group reminding me that they love me, God loves me, my family loves me, and no matter what, Love Always Wins. Always.

What you learn on the bus

The great thing about riding the bus is having no distractions, and thus, plenty of time to think. This is also the problem with riding the bus: Having plenty of time to think. If you’re prone to rumination like me, sometimes thinking isn’t the best idea. But every so often, I decide to put down my smart phone or my book and just look around on the bus, like I did this Monday, and when I do I am reminded of truths I’d forgotten since the last time I looked around.

First: You see that, for the most part, it really is true that the people who ride the bus are the poor. You count yourself lucky that riding public transportation is a choice for you, something you can decide you want to do instead of have to do to get to work or school.

Second: You notice that most of the poor – in spite of what FOX News might say – don’t actually have fancy phones, and they most certainly don’t have Kindles or iPads. They might be reading the newspaper, but just as likely are not, and it is rare to see anyone with a book.

Third: You see that the poor all look pretty dang tired. The older poor look exhausted. Every day you ride, no matter what time you ride, they look tired. And the younger poor look frustrated, angry, irritated, confused.

Fourth: You remember that almost all of the poor are in some sort of uniform. They are waitresses or vet techs or cosmetology students or mechanics or nurses aides or Goodwill employees. They are trying to make it in a world that says if you work hard you’ll succeed. You realize that mantra really does depend on the definition of success.

Fifth: You realize the younger poor are often nicer to the older poor. They stand so the older, more tired version of themselves can have a seat. They pick up canes that are dropped on the floor. You realize, with shame, that the poor  – at least these poor on the new route you now take to the new job you have that allows you the choice to ride the bus or drive a car – take care of each other and are, quite frankly, kinder and more patient on even rotten days than you are on good days. They are more humble and more steadfast and less whiny than you are.

You wonder, watching, if you would have the energy and determination to keep going if you had to pull on a waitress uniform each day and have your pay check determined by the mood of the family who stops in for breakfast on their way to whatever kind of day they are going to have, a day that seems like it will be better than yours by far because, at the bare minimum, they had a car to drive to your restaurant while you had to ride the bus. And you decide, with some amount of embarrassment and shame, that you don’t think you would be.




My brother’s keeper

At our house, our kitchen counter serves as a place to prepare food, leave messages for each other and drop the daily mail. I came home from Mass today and sifted through yesterday’s mail that Husband had fetched from the mailbox. “Oh no,” I said, fingering one particular piece. “Yeah,” he said, “I was debating whether I should leave that for you to see.” It was this:

CAM01309The notice was on a card I’d sent to my brother the prior week. It was the second letter I’d sent in four months. The first wasn’t answered, but it wasn’t returned either, so I took that as Sign of Life. This returned one means that B is no longer living at his last-known address, or, maybe, something worse. I’m a journalist by training, so I could find out what this worst might be, but I can’t bring myself to tonight. The past eight weeks have been a never-ending stream of Hard and I’m just not my normal Little Engine That Could.

The last time I saw B was more than a year ago. I was concerned because I couldn’t reach my brother by phone and the last time we spoke – the night of our father’s death – things had not gone well. B only gets pay-as-you-go coverage on his phone, so I always know when he’s absent a job and can’t pay as he goes, because the phone no longer rings.

That day, about a year ago, Husband and I drove to Phoenix to check on him and he hid from us in the backyard of a house he had told us he owned, a house he said he got through a quitclaim deed from his prior roommate. Each time we’d made the trek up north we found him in the backyard of this house, never in it, and he never invited us inside. After this final visit, we accepted he was most likely living in the backyard, not the house. We also had to accept that he didn’t want to see us because he ducked behind a wall the minute he heard me call his name. Husband, being tall enough to view over the fence, saw B before he went into hiding, so we knew he was alive. It wasn’t much, but it was something.

I spent all my free moments the next week talking to a mental health professional about my brother and how to approach him. I don’t know his diagnosis and I couldn’t report if he was on medication, I could only report behavior. He can seem fairly normal one day and the next manic or anxious or paranoid. Five years ago he spent Christmas with us, and while there were a few moments of Awkward, overall he did well. But then just two months later he was incoherent, bits of his life all mixed up like a 500-piece puzzle falling out of the phone at me in a torrent of pain.

The mental health professional and I went over a variety of options, and we had to settle on me sending letters with information about how to get help and a phone card. I couldn’t do a well-check because I couldn’t say for certain that B didn’t have a gun. Lots of veterans have them. If I sent cops to do a well-check and B wasn’t well and got aggressive, my do-gooding would land my sick brother in jail instead of a hospital. So I sent a letter. I didn’t get a response or a phone call. And now, laying on my kitchen counter, an “Attempted, not known, unable to forward” postal message.

A long time ago, when we were the final two children in a home troubled by alcoholism and abuse, I was my brother’s keeper. The problem was, I wasn’t very good at it. One of my most vivid childhood memories is of us standing in our pajamas in a dark hallway watching our parents yell at each other. B was shaking so badly that his right hand kept hitting mine and his left was hitting the wall. “Make them stop,” he cried, “make them stop.” I couldn’t control those adults of course, but instead of comforting my brother I yelled at him: “Stop shaking, you have to stop shaking!”

He was a fragile child, always, and suffered at the hands of bullies in school. There was no refuge at home, because forty years ago little boys weren’t allowed to cry and fathers yelled at you if you weren’t “man enough” by eight years old. As I’ve said before, my parents did the best they could with what they had, but they simply weren’t equipped to deal with their own marital misery and the needs of their children. And in the end, living amid chaos and fear, all of us children moved into survival mode, focused on saving ourselves.

I know it is “normal” to do that in a highly stressful environment, but it doesn’t make me feel any better, looking back, realizing that I should have reached out more to my brother, paid more attention to what was happening to him, tried to get him help long, long ago. Nor does it make me feel better knowing that at any point in the past five years since we have been re-connected, I’ve never offered shelter to him. He’s my brother, for goodness sake.

There was reason to keep him out of our house when we had children growing up; the parental instinct of protection is one that must be attended to. But after they left home and B and I had had a year of phone conversations leading to a dinner in Phoenix leading to Christmas at our home with three of our four 20-something children, there wasn’t really a reason. Maybe if he lived with Husband and I, he’d get better.

Except for the fact that just two months after that normal Christmas, we gave him a used computer and two hours later he called me frantic that he saw something in a picture we accidentally left of the hard drive, a picture of my son in ski goggles. The government was spying on him through those goggles, he yelled at me. Why was I trying to help the government spy on him? I finally gave the phone to Husband, who spent an hour trying to calm him down. We thought it was settled, but he called at least three more times that night, continuing to yell at me about helping the government spy. Finally, I said I wouldn’t talk to him anymore and hung up on him.

Two weeks later he called, a different person. Calm. Apologized. “I’ve ruined the computer,” he said. He explained that he tried to “scrub” the insides with a toothbrush. He couldn’t stop, his mind wouldn’t let him, until he’d pulled everything inside the computer out. There was no fixing it. “I’ll pay you back,” he said. I told him his phone call had frightened me, asked if he remembered what he said. Yes, he said, sometimes he got a little paranoid and it made him say stupid things.

“A little?” I asked. He chuckled. No, he said, more than a little. But he was getting help now. Except, it seems he wasn’t. Because if he was, he wouldn’t have been living in his back yard.

B is suffering. He is mentally ill and he’s poor, a lot like the People of the Bus. He can be scary – again, like some of the People of the Bus. You have to wonder which comes first – the being poor so then you can’t get help for Illness and Illness morphs into Scary, or being mentally ill so you can’t hold down a job and unemployment leads to terror? I don’t know. All I really know is that because B is unpredictable, I’m uncertain how to get him help without risking him hurting me out of fear someone is trying to hurt him. As the youngsters say, “It’s complicated.”

And yet. I see my 8-year-old brother shaking in that childhood hallway and at 19, at our mother’s funeral shaking again, and then just last year, hiding in his backyard, huddled behind a cabinet, no doubt still shaking. And my heart breaks. Then I see him, five years ago at Christmas, 49 years old but looking 60, laughing with two of my sons and building a gingerbread house. And I wonder, am I not my brother’s keeper? If not, who is?





On funeral etiquette, ritual and grief

My new job requires me to travel quite a bit, so sadly, I’m doing less bus riding and more car driving of late. Now instead of noticing things on the bus, I’m noticing things on the road, including something I’ve never seen in 15 years living in this Tucson suburb – a funeral procession. It looked a lot like this:1388118391_cb42260d2bThe reaction of other drivers to this event made me think about the pace of our lives. Most of the cars driving in the opposite direction of the procession just kept on driving. They didn’t slow down, and only one pulled to the side of the road and stopped.

As a young child I was taught that all cars should stop when a funeral procession is approaching,and if driving in the same direction, one would never overtake it. That lesson was long time ago but it stuck, so I was surprised to see so many drivers acting as if nothing was happening as the procession passed by.

I don’t think people were necessarily trying to be rude. There’s a chance they’d never seen a funeral procession (especially not one at 5:30 p.m.) or that they’d never been taught funeral procession etiquette.

But there’s also a chance they were simply too busy to notice. There are children to fetch from school and groceries to buy and dinner to cook and music lessons and soccer games to get to and blogs to write and … all this after working an 8 or 9 hour day. We’re tired. We’re distracted. And, frankly, I think we’ve lost touch with the importance of ritual as a process that helps us grieve.

The Western world, IMHO, doesn’t have much space for grief any more. In other countries – those we like to call “developing” – when a parent loses a child or a spouse his or her mate, the grieved person can take to the streets and wail and it is considered perfectly appropriate. You’re allowed to dress in black and hole yourself up in your room and burst into tears at a moments notice and no one questions it. There are funeral rituals that last days, if not weeks.

Here in the “modern world,” we’re not so good at that. We allow for some grieving, and some religions are better than others at offering rituals that helps walk people through the beginning stages of mourning. But as a culture in general, we want people to pick themselves up and march right along as if nothing has happened. Sure, you can feel out-of-sorts for a week or two, but then you’ll have people tell you to “keep busy” and “move on with your life” and other advice that only further highlights how uncomfortable we are around overwhelming sadness. We prefer people pretend that their heart hasn’t been ripped from their chests and torn into a million pieces; we’d like them to ignore the fact that every time they try to take a drink of water it feels like they are swallowing glass.

This past week, the 33-year-old husband of a former colleague of mine died. He possessed a great talent for someone so young, evidenced by his body of work in photojournalism. And, evidenced by the 100 or so people who attended his wake, he possessed a larger-than-life ability to be a friend.

Both he and his wife were journalists, making them part of the tribe I call my own, so I went to the wake to pay my respects even though I didn’t know Will. I saw a few of my former students and expressed how difficult it must be to have a friend who is so close to their age die. One explained that this was her second experience of young death and she had learned something the first time around. This time, she said, “I’m giving myself time to be sad.” As tears welled up in her eyes, she told me she wasn’t going to pretend things were normal when they weren’t.

That’s what we do when we stop for a funeral procession – we acknowledge that things are not normal. Perhaps it seems an old-fashioned ritual, but in our busy lives, I think we need more of it. We pay heed that the world has changed for the people in that long line of slow-moving cars. We pay attention, if even only for the two or three minutes it takes for the procession to pass, to the fact that someone lived and has now died. And maybe (hopefully) we think about the people following the hearse and the sadness they feel, growing a tiny bit more empathetic to our fellow human beings as they walk through the valley of death.